Poetry through the Seasons of Buffy the Vampire Slayer
In white
I hold you,
the ring of truth
falling
from your finger.
Blood flows
from the open wound
of my sword.
We dance,
sipping drinks
from colored glasses,
telling tales
to make me hungry.
Only gone a moment,
she comes
to claim my crown
(and) even with a head start,
I’m on the run.
Memories clattering
to the floor
like colored glasses,
it comes to me
quietly.
I couldn’t save him.
So with a kiss,
I say goodbye
and
(the) colors fade.
Our lives have splintered,
way found
becoming way lost.
Perhaps I should have
stayed away.
Removing your mask
from the wall,
I wear it.
It’s no good being me.
Like a stray cat,
I wander.
No cream to comfort.
Holding my burden close,
I speak, but
music surrounds me,
too loud,
and my friends
cry long my faults.
I battle fear,
but keep a few monsters
to myself
for another time.
Your name is a song,
I’m lost in the chorus.
Hiding out from my life,
from your death,
I work hard to forget,
filling ketchup, pouring coffee,
wandering streets
in missing pieces. I am
no one.
Despair’s gates, like heavy
bars, crush even murmurs
of love remembered
‘til destiny, in its way,
draws me homeward
and, in its embrace,
I begin to heal.
Love,
only love,
guides me
into the desert
with no water,
into the ocean
with no vessel,
and deep
into the darkness
with no hope
of redemption.
Good and evil battle
like lovers.
She lies still
and he, tortured,
the bloody sword sliding
through her fingers.
As winter snow
brings forth blossoms
pushing hope from the frozen ground,
what was good in him returns.
Breathing his name,
she holds him,
though their time is almost gone.
They kiss, as in a dream,
and say I love you,
but it doesn’t save them.
But, this time,
it does save the world.
close your eyes
and let me guide you to the darkness
No home.
No heart.
No breath.
Just here.
Just barely.
All the blossoms,
all the hope
held so deeply in her heart,
disappear,
as in a rear view mirror,
and leave her standing,
just barely,
and the world keeps turning,
as worlds tend to do.
encased in stone
lie my secrets
in the darkness hides my love
he was no longer the man
she had loved, but now a beast
mocking all she found sacred
making her bleed whenever possible
how she had asked for it by loving him
how she held hands with suffering’s cause
if i am worthy
the stone will soften
and take me with him into hell
she knew he was evil
she had tasted it even before he turned
but had believed love could protect them from the world
the first time he hit her
it felt like betrayal
the second time, punishment
they take your soul
then give it back and call it suffering
she was strong
but the blows damaged her
in places no one could see
she saw
the world’s sorrow
and felt unpure
close your eyes
and let me guide you through the darkness
she was destined
by the suffering
by the suffering in her soul
the demon’s breath
is merely waiting
waiting to inhale
you’re just another
fish in the sea
and you look great
in your suit
with the legs
and the abs
and the oh baby
you’re inside me
swimming about
skinny dipping
and the tides are
crashing
teaching me to swim
when all i want to do
is drown
They’re not my words,
but I say them over
and over
until you hear
my pain.
Fingers grasping
the top of the world,
I jump over,
weakened by sorrow.
Though I tell myself
to keep fighting,
I feel faint and
flushed with sickness.
He stares at me
from a doorway,
tipping his hat
‘til I am shaken.
Behind the curtain
lie shadows
of my own death
reflected in your eyes.
Monsters hide
inside and share
our darkest secrets,
though we no longer
see them and believe
that we are free.
I bring sunshine
to feed
your darkest hunger.
Behold a single rose
upon the door,
its scent filled with memory.
Music invites me in,
act one closing
but much still ahead.
Champagne and hope
climb the stairs,
calling out your name.
Candles flicker,
the dream light fading,
shivering as it slips away.
Your face lies
in shades of gray
upon my pillow,
and grief
fills my heart
where love once lived.
Petals still moist,
the music echoes
in my ears.
Flames of passion
burn my soul,
now lost forever.