i breathe into her mouth
to bring life
as she once did for me
but she’s cold
like a lake in winter
please don’t hurt her
how can she be my mother
one instant
and the next
just a body
* * *
Grief is silent.
Grief is screaming,
lying in swatches of color
strewn around the room.
She will never
breathe
again
or, or
brush her hair
or watch silly shows on television
or fix breakfast
or worry about her daughter.
She’s alone now.
In a room
where it’s okay
to be cold.
Her hair
lies in quiet curls
against her head.
Her eyes focused
on family
I can’t see.
The dark corridors
of death
are lined with
my shortcomings.
I am lost and alone
in the space
surrounding her
missing life.