Poetry through the Seasons of Buffy the Vampire Slayer
He’s my enemy, not my boyfriend
(though sometimes
I can’t tell the difference).
He says his darkness
is in the past, but his edges
are still tinged with black.
He tries to hurt me,
but I’m too busy hurting him
to notice.
The more damage I do,
the more he loves me.
And when he’s bad,
I long to kiss him.
Smashed together,
we can’t part.
Pleasure, pain,
they’re just the same.
Walls cave in.
Ceilings fall.
As do we,
amid the wreckage.
If you can make me
forget the lies you told,
would you steal
my other things?
Even my dreams?
Leaving you
and the stories behind,
I fly away
from the blue
of your eye,
the smile I thought
meant you were happy.
Memories, all
up in smoke
like a witch’s spell,
and even if I love you,
I don’t remember.
You stole that
from me too.
Are you my partner
or my editor?
Lover or predator?
I carry boxes
out the door,
leaving you
to find regret
on the bathroom
floor.
It would have
been easy
for me to stay,
but you gave that,
you gave it away.
You stole my
memories.
Would you lie
and take my
other things?
CCBDCC the way he looks at me
CCBDCC it’s not like i don’t see
FFEGFF there have been men before
FFEGFF and one that i adored
CDCDCC but i’ve been dead awhile
CCCCB♭B♭ and he can make me smile
FGFGFF with just one look at me
FGFGFF he’s so not good for me
CDCDCC he follows me at night
CDCDCC he longs to hold me tight
FGFGFF but i push him away
FGFGFF though i wish that he’d stay
CDCDCC cuz i’ve been dead awhile
CCCCB♭B♭ and it’s so hot his smile
FGFGFF it feels so good to me
FGFGFF to have him look at me
DFEGFDC if i give myself to him
DFEGF will i lose my soul
CCCDCC he was my enemy
CCCDCC now sees the girl in me
FFFGFF but i push him away
FFFGFF though i wish that we’d play
CDCDCC cuz he’s been dead awhile
CCCCB♭B♭ and i can make him smile
FGFGFF i wish he’d leave me be
GAGAGG why won’t he look at me
CDCDCC don’t want my friends to know
CDCDCC cuz hey he’s not my beau
FGFGFF but i’ve been dead awhile
FGFGFF and it’s so hot his smile
CDCDCC i follow him at night
CCCCB♭B♭ and then he holds me tight
FGFGFF he’s so not good for me
FGFGFF why can’t i leave him be
DFEGFDC if i give myself to him
DFEGF will i lose my soul
CCBDCC it’s not like i don’t see
CCBDCC the way he looks at me
FFEGFF i have known men before
FFEGFF it’s nice to be adored
CDCDCC but i’ve been dead awhile
CCCCB♭B♭ and it’s so hard to smile
FGFGFF i know that i should flee
FGFGFF but then he looks at me